Worst day of the week

4 05 2007

Tomorrow is the worst day of my week. I have to see the ex. I dread these days more than any other during the entire week. Its been almost 6 months since I left him and yet he has not let go. It was much harder before, trust me. The cops only had to come once (that I haven’t blocked out) and that was bad but I got past it.

We end up in these stupid arguements, agruing over who gets what. I want to tell him to take it all and shove it up his ass, but I really like some of the stuff I have accumulated over a period of 10 years and I would like to take some of it with me. He wont give up anything without a fight.

Most days he has the nerve to ask me why I left. He is so arrogant that he thinks he didnt do anything wrong. He admits to knowing that I was not happy. He admits this. He also admits that he never really cared then but that he cares now. He sees the “error of his ways”. *snort* Give me a fucking break. Does it look like I was born yesterday? Fuck. That shit pisses me off. Everytime it pisses me off, I know even more that I made the right choice.

It hasnt been easy. Its been the hardest fucking thing I had to do in my life. But it feels so right. I have good days and bad days. I haven’t given a second of thought to going back to him and I’m actually proud of myself for that. I’ve had to leave two of the places I was staying and that has been so hard. Right as I start to feel comfortable, I have to pack my stuff up and go. But right now, I am back with my parents and its been going ok. I can be quiet here and I appreciate that. It’s quiet here and I really appreciate that. Six months and I dont have much of a plan. First thing on my list is a divorce. I know I always have somewhere to stay, at least for the time being. The big D is what needs to happen ASAP.

Right now we are watching “Ferris Bueler’s Day Off” which is probably one of the greatest movies of all time. Rura is giving me the stink eye but I cant figure out why. LOL. I also caught him checking me out earlier so he is forgiven. He is also really really cute so I can forgive him for a lot because of that.

For today: Flickr pic of the Day: Crash Flickr ♥